And… Here comes the April… It has been one year, i have you… Literally…. It would be a lie, if I tell ya, that i just forgot everything about you… I didn’t…
I was thinking… sometimes.. rarely… I was thinking that there would be someone in the world who might find you by chance… Actually then what? .. not much, just thinking… Recalling her, Dalia girl, just THINKING about that…
so many things happened… I just remember myself one year ago, so desperate, just starting new life…
axalli cxovreba shedga. da ra banaluradac ar unda jgerdes, imdeni ram moxda. arc ki vici saidan davicyo. an girs rom dacyeba?
yoveltvis momavlit vcxovrobdi. yoveltvis. da arasdros vimaxsovrebdi/vubrundebodi carsuls. es arascoria, iseve rogorc yvelaferi calmxrivi da calsaxa. axla acmyoti var umetesad… nu… umetesad…
simshvidea chems cxovrebashi dazabulobis gverdit… principshi iseti cxovrebaa, romelic yoveltvis mindoda rom mqonoda da vshishob, yvelaferi zgaparivit ar dasruldes. miuxedavad… miuxedavad! ise agar meshinia yoveli tvis gasvlis, rogorc sharshan zustad am dros.. noemberic movida baby, da yvelaze axali aprilic… netav kidev ra iqneba momavali clis zustad sul axal aprils?.. da.. me magisic ar meshinia…
i feel that i own myself… i own my life.. strange feeling…
axla F.-s vicnob… gavicani S-ic… es, ubralod xsenebistvis, torem arc araferi… ZALIAN sainteresoa, rac moxda F-tan da albat odnav ufro naklebad sainteresoa ra moxdeba mere.. most likely nel-nela iklebs…
dges damezina da moxda is, risi yvelaze zalian meshinoda ukanaskneli otxi tvis ganmavlobashi, davxede saats da 9:31 achvenebda.. yvelaze saintereso isaa, rom ar mnerviulia, taxis mzgols cot acavelazgandarave kidec… aseve titqmis mshvidad shevedi, paolostan gavcvale ramdenime sityva…
“you are late, lady” – shemomageba egreve… – “that’s something I am very strict for”
da ai… mag drosac ki ar minerviulia… mere zedized ramdenime sisulele vutxari…
“you shut up today” – telefonze laparakobda da moxda is, rac zalian chamyva, vigacis tandascrebit momca shenishvna da me mikvirs ara shenishvna, romelic tavistavadad srulebit ar momxvedria gulze, gamikvirda mis skill-ebshi esodeni naklis agmochena, albat martlac cota meti experience-ia masshi da naklebi – scavla…
martla sainteresoa, mere kidev rogor cava da ra iqneba… albat savaraudod agarc araferi.. urtiertobam piks miagcia da i don’t know about him, but from my side the flame is already gone…
However, during aaall these months i was desperately trying to find a flaw in him… to find a REASON … maybe that’s exactly the thing.. Maybe he is not following anything.. just enjoying …
One more thing, i wanna figure out his relationship with Pieter.. how he really feels about him… because it might have a great influence on us…
manamde ertxel kide shevedi msubuqad gabutuli, gzashi ragacebi mitxra da pasuxi ar gaveci, tviton break ze gadioda da gacherda gzashi, dameloda, idga da miyureba… da me saxeshi mainc ar shevxede… gamexumra ragac… da me chemdauneburad gamecina.. ratom mecineba/megimeba sul, roca mas velaparakebi?.. arada sul rogor minda metad mkacri viyo da metad ar vici… ar vici, rogori unda viyo.. rogori GINDA rom viyo, F? magisi algo yoveltvis mqonda… da am shemtxvevashi ar vici… iqneb imitom, rom… ara, ar minda… arc erti mxare minda, arc meore… ubralod minda, rom bolomde amovqacho es adamiani… da roca mgonia, rom vsio, gavige, uceb axali kolofi gamochndeba xolme, sul pacacina kolofis ziras da ar uchans ziri misi ujrebis raodenobas…
Give me enough strength… Give me enough perseverance & self-control.. to resist… No, not to resist, but to …. WIN…
… and please baby, never think of stupid things from your past… of this little talk in the church… you ain’t alone…
I have no idea, WHO you have … but still…
Let’s see, how tomorrow will be…
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